[ baw john has feels for this particular strider. lots of feels. mostly because it really sounds like he’s going through a lot of the same stuff john had to go through, and it’s really shitty and crappy, so he wants to always be there and make it better for him. but he doesn’t want to make it seem like he’s crossing too many lines (he’s well aware of how striders work, what with their barriers and stuff B|a), but still. he’s slowly going to find ways to cheer him up ok!! slowly but surely.

mostly he wishes they’d talk more! and he’s going to do just that ehehehe. ]